Can I Have it All?

In my teen years up into my 20s, I was told by loved ones, strangers and society that I could have it all! The career, the husband, the home and the kids.  Now, in my 40s, I can tell you that having it ALL is TOO MUCH at least for me.

I realized recently that I have to step back out of the secular world.  It's filled with chaos, war and hate. It's hurting my mind and my heart. Working two jobs, trying to pay all the bills, taking care of a home, a husband and a toddler are too many balls to juggle.  I'm exhausted and I don't want it.

I would have preferred to stay home and have children but that wasn't God's plan for me. God blessed us with one son after 10 years of marriage and previous failed attempts at parenthood.

I have been standing at the fork in the road of life for some time. I have been thinking about leaving one of my jobs.  I have been praying on it.  I must admit I haven't stilled my mind enough to hear what God is telling me.

I'm the most happy when I'm home trying new recipes, new art projects with Arthur and volunteering at church. It's not glamorous or exciting but these activities keep me happy.

Being in the world but not of the world

John verses 19-20

19 If you belonged to the world, the world would love you as its own; but because you do not belong to the world, because my choice of you has drawn you out of the world, that is why the world hates you.

20 Remember the words I said to you: A servant is not greater than his master. If they persecuted me, they will persecute you too; if they kept my word, they will keep yours as well.

Bible verse taken from Catholic Online


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