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11-9-2016

St. Teresa's "business card" read: “The fruit of silence is prayer; the fruit of prayer is faith; the fruit of faith is love; the fruit of love is service; the fruit of service is peace.”

11-9-2017, the day after what was the ugliest election cycle I have ever experienced in my life. I feel drained, emotional and physical.  I also felt that I'm in a state of confused. Americans have turned on each other. I myself have lost many friends because of this election.
As a Latina and a disabled woman, I hope President Elect Trump's negative comments and views of minorities, the disabled, Muslims, women, and GBTLQ was just political rhetoric.

May of you may be wondering why I put the GBTLQ community in the statement above.
Yes, I'm Catholic and don't agree with laws regarding GBTLQ.  However, as a Christian, my job description is to love everyone.  Only God can judge his creations.

Just like I do NOT agree with the 45th president.  Truth be told I don't like him. …

Rainy Day Activity

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I try to do activities with my son as my pain level permits.  On this day we made clay
He loved measuring and squishing the clay between his tiny fingers.

This smile and giggles made me happy.




1 cup of flour
1 cup of salt
1/2 cup of water
food coloring if you want to make different colored clay/

Mix the flour and salt together.
Add a few drops of the food coloring to water
then add the water to the flour and salt mix.


The Monthly Stress

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he beginning of each month causes me stress because of bills.   Like hundreds of Americans we are in debt.  Dan was out of work for two years, during that time  Iwas the sole provider. He stayed home with our son and looked for work and at times was able to do get odd jobs.


I worry we won't have enough to pay all the bills.  My medical bills are piling up.  I have four different payment plans at the moment.  I have had three hospital stays in 2 years, my treatment for my spams and pain management are expensive.  Now I have physical therapy for 13 weeks two times a week.  That means I need an extra $650 to be able to pay the $25 co pay each visit.

My faith is constantly tested I often wonder why God has chosen me. My mother in law LaVerne used to always say "Let Go and Let God"   she lived by this statement to the day of her death.

Somethings I'm trying to do differently:

I try to say my rosary on my commute to work.
Say three things I'm thankful for
Write about s…

The Monthly Stress

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he beginning of each month causes me stress because of bills.   Like hundreds of Americans we are in debt.  Dan was out of work for two years, during that time  Iwas the sole provider. He stayed home with our son and looked for work and at times was able to do get odd jobs.


I worry we won't have enough to pay all the bills.  My medical bills are piling up.  I have four different payment plans at the moment.  I have had three hospital stays in 2 years, my treatment for my spams and pain management are expensive.  Now I have physical therapy for 13 weeks two times a week.  That means I need an extra $650 to be able to pay the $25 co pay each visit.

My faith is constantly tested I often wonder why God has chosen me. My mother in law LaVerne used to always say "Let Go and Let God"   she lived by this statement to the day of her death.

Somethings I'm trying to do differently:

I try to say my rosary on my commute to work.
Say three things I'm thankful for
Write about s…

Shana Tova to My Jewish Loved Ones

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L'Shana Tovah Tikatevu: May you be inscribed in the book of life... May you and your loved ones have a blessed Rosh HaShanah!

My Emotional Struggle with Motherhood

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aving a physical disability causes me to have daily emotional struggles with being a mom. Arthur-Ray is now a toddler.  He is lightning fast on his feet. Which has made me feel inadequate.  I struggle with dressing and diapering him.  
My husband and uncle have taken over these tasks.  I have become anxious around my toddler, I’m barely able to stand or walk. When he starts exploring I being to cry because I worry that Arthur-Ray will get hurt and I can’t protect him.   I know it’s all in my head and he is fine.  He always runs to me to give me the things he finds.  Last night it was my hair brush, make-up bag and deodorant.   

He loves to come over and chat.  Some words I understand others I don't I just chat along.  When he needs consoling and affection he climbs on my lap.  It hurts my legs but I smile and hug him.        

My husband Dan and Uncle Joey have taken over the house hold chores, preparing meals and being my support system.I would be lost without them but many times I f…

Potty Training

Arthur-Ray is 20 months and our daycare provider has informed us when he goes to the blue room at two years old they start the potty training process.

I love Pintrest for recipes, craft ideas, and parenting advice.  This one  pin  from a blogger mom  said she had potty trained her 3 kids by 18 months. The author was Becky Mansfield.

This statement intrigued me and read her blog post at Modern Family.
WHAT Parents should LOOK FOR: Pretending to go to the bathroomPretending to wipeInterested in body partsHaving a dry diaper for more than an hourInterested in watching others use the bathroomWanting to flush the toiletInterested in toilets Arthur-Ray is interested in his body parts, he follows everyone into the bathroom and he wants to flush the toilets. Now that we know the signs to look for Dan set up the potty.  Arthur-Ray was excited and clapped his hands and giggled.  I was surprised he sat on it.  
When Arthur-Ray wasn't looking we put it away since the weekend is almost over.   Our…

9/11; (15) Years Later

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God Bless the World

The Canonization of Mother Teresa

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St. Teresa's "business card" read: “The fruit of silence is prayer; the fruit of prayer is faith; the fruit of faith is love; the fruit of love is service; the fruit of service is peace.”
Today is a special day for many Catholics and others, today Mother Teresa became St. Teresa of Calcutta.  However, for me and the (2) generations before me she will always be Mother Teresa.

This is the Year Jubilee of Mercy for Catholics.  Which is also fitting that St. Teresa was canonized this year.  Since Mother's  mission was to take care of the poorest of the poor. 

This is also the year I decided to be confirmed within the church.  Confirmation is one of the seven sacraments through which Catholicspass in the process of their religious upbringing. According to Catholic doctrine, in this sacrament they are sealed with the gift of the Holy Spirit and are strengthened in their Christian life.  

When you become confirmed you take a new name.  I took the name Teresa.  Why? you ask:
For …

Give your hands to serve and your hearts to love- Mother Teresa

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The people that know me well, know I love Mother Teresa.  I left the church for a long time but I still read books and articles about Mother Teresa and Pope John Paul.
Now as mom I go back and read Mother's quotes to give guidance to help me be a good mom. Being a mom is hard.  Working (2) jobs.  One job I love which is my travel business doesn't make me enough to leave the 8 to 4 job just yet, One day it will, accessible travel is my passion.  I help people see and enjoy the world.
The bit of energy I have left I give to him each day.  He knows I have physical limitations so each day when I get home from work he climbs up on my wheelchair on to my lap.  I ask him about his day and he babbles away.  
We try to eat dinner together and each time I've noticed he becomes more independent  and want no help in feeding himself.  I miss my baby but I enjoy the toddler he is becoming. Sometimes the toddler has nuclear melt down moments.  Yes! I start to cry to too and pray for pat…

Being Catholic

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It took me about 25 years to be confirmed a Catholic!

I struggled with my faith for years.  Yet, I NEVER stopped believing in God.  I just did not believe in going to church.

Growing up in Brooklyn I knew my mom was Catholic.  Since her dad, my grandfather spent 30 minutes a day in the bathroom praying the rosary.  My dad was Pentecostal though he rarely went to church. We were not regular church goers.  We went to Catholic Church on important holidays Easter and Christmas.

As an adult mom and me went to college together and became teachers and taught in Catholic school. This is were I learned more about the Catholic religion.  I transferred to a Lutheran school and started learning the ways of the Lutherans.

It wasn't until I met my future husband in 2003, through a Yahoo personal ad that is when I returned to Catholic Church.  Dan was a practicing Catholic.  He attended mass and was part of Church.
I didn't go to church all the time but more regularly.

We were married in…

My Limits are a Challenge

Being a mom with a disability who is in chronic pain daily been a challenge om my mind and body. I want to get on the floor and play with Arthur Ray, yet, it's hard to be comfortable even to interact with him.
Arthur Ray realizes my limitations.  He usually comes to me first and now that he is 18 months he climbs onto my lap.  He loves to climb onto my lap when we are getting ready to  go out. He wants to drive the wheelchair which he isn't allowed to do.
Each night after dinner he follows me into the bathroom for bathtime.  Since we have a walk-in tub he walks into the tub and tries to undress but gets frustrated when his shirt won't go over his head. Bathtime has become our time to connect.  We practice counting our toes and learning the parts of our face.  
 I try to focus on the activities I can do with my son.  I hope as he gets older we can make memories that he will fondly remember as an adult.


What Sr. Cecilia Maria’s Smile Can Teach Us About Happiness

What Sr. Cecilia Maria’s Smile Can Teach Us About Happiness: John Clark ponders the recent life and death of Sr. Cecilia Marie of Argentina, her wonderful Catholic example for living—and a smile that will last forever #cloisteredsister #death #faith

What Sr. Cecilia Maria’s Smile Can Teach Us About Happiness

What Sr. Cecilia Maria’s Smile Can Teach Us About Happiness: John Clark ponders the recent life and death of Sr. Cecilia Marie of Argentina, her wonderful Catholic example for living—and a smile that will last forever #cloisteredsister #death #faith

The Lord has Risen

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A Year in Review (2015)

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I have not blogged in over (18) months.  Life has gotten busy.  For the last (3) years I started my own business.  I'm a Travel Specialist, specializing in cruising, All-Inclusive resorts in Mexico and Disney.  It took time to get the business up and running.  If you need help planning your next vacation call me of visit jtmvacations.com.

Then in 2014, I found out I was pregnant while getting diagnosed with gallstones in my common bile duct at our local emergency room.  I didn't believe the doctors. I think I was in shock until my second trimester. I had a wonderful pregnancy.  Then on Jan. 21, 2015, our son Arthur-Ray Joseph was born.  His hyphenated first name is both his grandpas' names.  Dan's dad was named Arthur, my dad's name is Ray.  We needed a Christian middle name so we named him Joseph which is also his great uncle's name.  He is our world but it's hard since my health is not what it use to and we are not young parents.  My uncle Joey moved in …

My Thoughts on this Good Friday

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Fourteen months ago I became a mom. I love my son, he is a gift from God.  Nine years into our marriage we stopped trying to have a family.  Then in God's tine, not ours I was pregnant. I had a wonderfully pregnancy.

On this day of the Passion, Good Friday, I feel deep emotional pain for
 Mother Mary. How horrible it must have been for her to witness the crucifixion of her son.  Her child that she carried, birth and raised.  I don't think I would have been that brave.  
I feel a connection with my son that I have never felt with anyone. Mother Mary must have had that connection.  All a mother wants is the best for child to protect them for harm and wish them the best in life.

When I read the stations of cross I think of Jesus' pain and death.  I also see and feel Mother Mary's pain and sadness.  Tears run down my cheeks because motherhood has changed my view of many things.  I want to be the Mother that teaches by example do as I do, not as I say.  I want my son to b…